Sometimes life throws you a crazy series of curve balls. You end up in places you wouldn’t expect, doing things you never thought you’d do (or do again), and all the things you thought would happen in the future begin to happen in the now.
You’ve probably noticed the drop-off in posts here at Happenchance. I’m not abandoning this blog, just refocusing my efforts. In a moment you’ll see why.
Here’s a brief rundown of what I’ve been doing lately, starting with what may be the most important thing that’s ever happened to me.
- Making a baby. Tiffany is pregnant (and usually barefoot). She’s due in late December. We’ve known for a bit but have kept mum until now. Gender remains unknown. To say I’m excited and terrified would be like saying Starry Night is a pretty picture, or Infinite Jest an interesting summer read. This should be fodder for an entire post, but right now I can say nothing with certainty except that my mind = blown.
- Growing a garden. I’m a lousy gardener, but I’ve managed to defend a 20×30 vegetable patch from the roar of nature (I had to sacrifice a couple rows of jalapenos to the weeds). I’m not going for total self-sufficiency, but preparing food that I grew in my own dirt is damned satisfying. I’ve spent way too much time thinking about compost.
- Recording an EP. This is taking longer than I thought. It always does. At the June 1 deadline, we were 50%. Now we’re 70%, and I’m the holdup. I thought I’d go all 80/20 on this, but I suffer from Shiny Object Syndrome when it comes to writing keyboard parts.
- Avoiding the internet. I don’t always gaze at a screen, but when I do I prefer to be writing fiction rather than reading blogs or twittering. Who wants to stare at a screen when there’s a forest begging to be hiked in, a garden that needs tending, and blackberries begging to be picked, all within 100 yards of one’s house?
- Actively seeking for a public sector job with health insurance. Babies ain’t cheap. Neither is health insurance in West Virginia. At this point, I will gladly trade my time and expertise for insurance and a paycheck. If all goes well, I expect to end up working in either education or tourism.
- Focusing on fiction. Last month I finished the draft of the second book in my End of the Iron Age series. The first one (completed, for now) remains unpublished. I procrastinate the pitching of my book by writing (and never publishing) short stories. I’m also typing the entirety of The Great Gatsby (20% finished).
- Delivering pizzas for a side hustle. I expected this to crush my soul, but so far my soul remains thoroughly intact. Easy work, decent money, and a high double-dipping factor: I’ve listened to several audiobooks over the past month. It also helps that my mgr and coworkers are all good people.
Looking at this list, three things stand out.
- My priorities have shifted radically (duh). This time last year, freshly returned from Thailand, I was getting ready for my next trip abroad and working on entirely wholesome internet schemes. Now, I’m buckling down and saving for the future, working for the man, and trying to grow something where I’ve been temporarily planted.
- I’m a lazy freelancer. This may be due to my summer-time aversion to screen-gazing, but I’ve only done a few jobs since I returned from my winter gig in Korea, and I’ve exhausted my limited capacity for self-awareness that would enable me to figure out why.
- I’m experiencing massive Resistance. I do the work, that’s no problem. The problem is I don’t ship. WTF?!?! I write a blog that helps people do creative work and defeat Resistance and here I am, drowning in unshipped work. Maybe my tagline should simply read ‘Create Something’ because ‘Create Something Amazing‘ raises the bar way too high.
My next post will be about the lessons in creativity I’ve learned from my garden. If I’m getting too country for you, go ahead and unsubscribe.
If you like, you may call me a charlatan for not shipping in the comments. Or, even better, leave some happy words for my wife. She could use them, and I promise she’ll read them.